YOU'RE AFRAID AND YOU SHOULD BE
I’m levitating above you in the early hours of the morning.
I can clap my hands and crack your sleep in two.
I’m so high above you when I fall, I’ll fall hard and smack our bodies
into a flattened
panqueque in your sheets.
Who knows what incantations my assimilated tongue
will waggle into existence? I let it cluck back as far as it needs to.
I am not one and
I am not two things
Mira! Mira! Mira! Mirror!
The joke’s on you.
I’m looking at your neck longingly like a third gen Puerto Rican Dracula,
and I want my blood back.
Those hairs on the back of your neck,
I call them to stand,
and I brush them back down with a Barbie comb
and I’ll do it again and again.
is how you turn cute
I just want to whisper to all my selves
in the dark while hovering,
and I know it’s hard to be afraid,
to bear witness,
and while I’m not interested in rescuing you,
I’ll make a wager:
I’ll show you my guts if you
show me yours.
DIALING PSYCHIC TWIN
Reciprocally, I am gained and lost.
Abandoned by my psychic twin
I etch my body’s outline through dimensions
by flesh and fire and all the grit strewn from teeth and lungs,
but when I taste twin’s thoughts, it is undone.
Self is now an ingrown hair,
angry beneath the skin.
Psychic twin, please finish my sentences:
My body is just a house for ____.
When it crumbles, I will be reaching out for ____.
I will be reaching, I will be reaching. . .
I keep your number behind my eyelids.
I am the body half-inhabited.
I call out to the void—
Cathleen Bota is a multimedia poet, librarian, and Sailor Moon scholar in Orlando, FL. She is co-founder of the interdisciplinary reading series LITEROCALYPSE and poetry and graphics editor at specs.